So where are they? Only one things has happened, we make lots of money. But what is that compared to the other dreams we had? Nothing.
It all has to start with getting our own place but every time we look something is either wrong with us or right after we look at a place someone takes it.
We know for a fact that Cris is where he needs to be, there is no doubt in my mind that Cris should be working for The Journey. So does that mean I'm not suppose to be doing what I'm doing? Am I the one that is holding us back? Why is this happening? Are we suppose to learn something from this? Where is my American Dream?
But throughout the years if there is one thing I have learned it is that with great adversity comes great blessings. I have been without money but never without food, shelter, family, or love. I know there will be a place that I can call home. I know that Cris and I will live a life worth living.
I wish things would just fall into place now. I wish things weren't so hard. I wish that I could get everything that I have ever wanted right now. But how would I learn from any of that? How would I know the right place when I see it? How would I know what REAL independence is like? How would I know if I was living?
Cris' Note: Sometimes things look like they're falling apart when they're actually falling into place. We may have lost one apartment that seemed sure, but we immediately found half a dozen others that were hundreds of dollars cheaper. I think everything will be fine, but we'll have to put our life together one piece at a time. We'll get there.
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